At cross roads

Its been months since I blogged here. So the first thing I did, was to revisit my last post. And it seemed to placate me after I had a bout of depression last afternoon about pretty much the same stuff, I promised myself not to worry about.

Reading my last post was like answering my own question. Thank God for blogging. It means the world has to see me cry or crib a lot less often.

However, I do want to reflect on my lost dream? what is it that I really want? What is it that pleases me and what makes me happy? What can I do to stop myself mulling?

So here goes a to-do list.

- I want to write. Whether it pays me or not, I like to write.I wish I was a teen again keeping a simple journal and having people fawn over it when they chanced to read it.

- I accept that to keep writing, I need money and I need recognition.
And so, I am going to do two writing projects to win me a little of both.
Starting with writing an article to be published in Little India. I somehow need that to justify that what I write is good enough to be read by people.

-And I want to compile articles for a publishing org that will pay me. A little more than the paltry 2 dollars everyone seems to promise.

- And I want to go back and volunteer. Because you cant do everything in life for money and fame. PAC, School and Mansion..here I come.

- And finally, the food club blog. That has a deadline of Aug 15th.

So much for now!